#throwback

좋은 아침이에요 여러분~ 오늘도 열심히 하자<3

YaAllah, pr banget tau gak nulis hangul pake laptop:( Anyway, it’s the second day of fasting! Ramadan Mubarak all! Semoga tahun ini lebih baik daripada tahun kemaren yaws.

So, it’s the first week of holidays. Harusnya sih happy ya soalnya setahun ke depan I’ll be more likely busier and more stressed than ever. I mean, 3^rd grade of high school? Ring a bell? Yep, senior year. Well, just like what I’ve said before, I’ve spent my first week holiday with doing nothing; absolutely nothing. [Except for finishing the deadline in a day AND still have 13 more deadlines, yeah, you can say I’m a completely wholly fully couch potato.]

Anyway, ceritanya kemaren gue iseng gitukan buka cerita lama gue. You know, my old crappy fiction stories? I mean the ones with English specifically? Nah, terus gue bandingin sama yang baru gue tulis sekarang-sekarang ini dan ternyata… ALHAMDULILLAH I’M IMPROVED QUITE A LOT:’)))

Dulu waktu pertama banget nulis pake bahasa Inggris itu kelas 9 akhir kalo nggak salah. Abis selesai UN kan gabut banget kan tuh udah gitu lagi banyak banget bahan baperan. Waktu pertama kali nulis gue bikin two shots dan itu…ancur sih engga. Thanks to LIA banget ya. Beneran bantu masalah grammars, vocabs, dll. Cuma ya kurang terstruktur sama kurang mendalami karakternya. Cerita gue yang dulu juga terlalu cepet dan perasaan yang ada di cerita itu dangkal. Padahal sebenernya, I always put my real feelings or even my real stories in every story that I made. And they’re deep but I just couldn’t express it well at those times. Tapi yaudahlah, namanya juga belajar.

But, sometimes when I read them, I still get ‘wow, did I really write this’ feeling.

Terus, inget banget masa-masa baru dapet subscribers sama a lot of comments. Seneng banget parah! Bikin ngerasa kalo buah pikiran gue tuh ternyata bisa bikin orang seneng banget sampe sedih banget. Haaa, I miss those times. Sekarang gue ngerasa kayak newbie lagi. Learning again from the bottom, but it’s okay:) I’m happy enough by the fact that you’re reading mine. I’m still learning and falling down doesn’t mean I have to give up.

Owrait, gue gatau ini kenapa jadi mellow kayak gini ahahaha. Yaudahlah, gue mau mandi dan mencoba melakukan hal yang produktif. ‘Mencoba’ adalah kata kuncinya. Oke, semangat puasanya ya kita! Yeay!

So, this is it! #throwback.