S-C-H-O-O-L

I know it’s rather odd to talk about it right now but I’m really going to talk about, yep, school. Funny how I finally come to talk about it when it’s ended almost three years now. Tan’s timing sucks.

I’ve been lumping myself in assignments. No kidding. It’s so stupid of me to think that sixth semester is not stressing much but at the end of semester which means now, I’m stressed out. I’m stressed out to the point I haven’t even gotten my period for this month.

Listen, before you assume, I didn’t do anything. You see, people get all panicky when they did something and their period comes late after, right? I’m panicking even when I didn’t do anything. So, yeah. Please come to me, period. No matter how hurt you may be.

Okay, now back to the subject.

School.

You may ask why suddenly I thought about school and decided to talk about it. Yup, suddenly. As if this morning I woke up for suhoor and just felt like ‘damn, I miss school’. If I think about it more, I actually never really hated school. Ugh, hate is a strong word. Let’s use dislike instead.

Well, yeah, I didn’t dislike school. Sure, I had my lazy days back then but never did I hate it. I liked going to school and meeting my friends and, you will be surprised, studying. I liked the process of studying at school.

I might be crazy, that was I thought this morning right after it hit me.

Before I went to university, people had been telling me about how different university and school would be. Boy, they were right. Absolutely. I can’t choose which one is better because soon all will be memories. I will miss these times anyway.

The thing about school that I absolutely like is the people. I hardly went out and played around my neighborhood. Simply because no one here is around my age. Still applies until now by the way. So, I had to go to school if I wanted to play. I got to meet people too at school. I’m such people person I guess. 

The teachers were nice too. I didn’t like all of them. Obviously, you have to have one or two people you don’t like that much at school, right? It was the same for me. I had my favorites and least favorites.

I loved memorizing and reading. Studying didn’t become much a burden because of that. I really enjoyed studying together in the morning before exam. Ah, sweet old days. We were really the type to pull an all-nighter and going all in next day.

Crazy, I might really have been becoming crazy. I just thought that I miss having exam at school!

Damn. What is really wrong with me, indeed.

Things about school lead me to a conclusion that I actually really enjoy studying and probably, love doing it. I can turn studying into a fun activity to do.

(I can hear myself snickering from the future.)

But, well, I really want to pursue my study. If study can get me anywhere, why don’t I study until it gets me places? After all, I’ve always wanted to travel around the world. I hope it won’t end as just a dream. It’s always been my dream and I wish to make it comes true.

Someday, I will be all around the word to study and work and travel and have fun.

I want to stray as far as I can and it all started with school. I hope so. 

(Yeah, actually, it is just my morning rant. You notice it, right? I don’t make a point and just rant. I only want to write out of blue. I’ve been restless for days. I don’t know what to do and my thoughts are all over the places. Tough. At least, I got to spend this semester with my crush though. Ugh, realization hits hard by the way. He’s really infatuating the more I get to know him. Ah, simple happiness.)