"In which..."

This post will not contain some poems or nice quotes, read by your own risks.

This post only sums up the absurdity of my week. So, I'll start sharing from that Saturday (161112).

In which I was the happiest person alive (or so I felt).

It sounds a lot like a prompt, isn't it? But yeah, the more I am thinking about it now, the more it becomes like a prompt for me. It feels surreal to be honest. HAHAHA you guys must be thinking like "wth this girl is talking about". No, wait, "guys"? No one reads this blog. Anyway, you must be wondering what in earth the thing that made me felt like I was the happiest person alive?

     S H I N e e.

   Yep, SHINee's back in Jakarta!!! After two years, finally I could see my brothers breathing and performing right in front of my eyes. The five of them, I repeat, THE FIVE OF THEM. God, I was so happy. They were sooooooo close to me like yeah. They saw me, except Taem. AND JJONG FREAKING NODDED AT ME. Gosh, that was lit. It was one of the best moments in my life. I promise to myself that I'll study hard and work even harder so I can work with them.

In which I felt like not going back to Nangor.

Indeed, I said that I would work hard but when I realized that I had to go back here again (I'm writing this at kosan btw), I felt really devastated. Not really, actually. I just didn't feel right. Yet, I must go back. So, I did.

   I found out later that I really regretted going back on Sunday. My lecturers didn't even come on the day after.

In which I was late for the mid test and wasn't allowed to take it.

I swear I didn't do it on purpose. I didn't want to be late and I'd tried hard not to be late either. I guess, that day, lady luck was turning her back on me (just like you and you and you, HA HA HA, I was joking). So, yep, I couldn't make it AND couldn't take the test.

   I was so torn between mourning and throwing a fit. In the end, I did things to distract myself from thinking about it too much. And well, I wasn't alone. THAT WAS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING, OKAY? I.was.not.alone. There were like 9 people beside me who missed it. It may sound really evil, but I was glad that they were late too (look guys, if one of you are reading this, please forgive me. But really, thank you for being late with me. It relieved me so much, knowing that I wasn't alone).

   And aren't you guys curious how late I was?

   I came at 8:01 A.M and the test started at 8:00 A.M.

   Freaking wonderful, isn't it?

  (FYI, I'm no longer bitter about this. I've made a peace with myself and told her that it's okay, it's humanly to be late. It's a lesson for me. So, yeah, I'm content right now --or so I keep telling myself).

In which the second chance came.

My lecturer told us to come at 7:00 A.M straight to do the test at Friday. Only God knew how grateful I was and really, it made me giddy. I mean, come on, it was a total lie if I said that I didn't care about it. From day one, education and such always have a quite enormous place in my mind. So, I tried really hard not to be late again. It was an open-book test.

   Was it easy? Completely not.

In which I found out that, wow, Nangor.

That Saturday, I was looking for an alternate place for the movie. Oh, yes, I didn't tell you? I'm making a movie. So, yeah, they brought me to some beautiful places and I was like, "DAAAAAMNNN, is it Nangor?". Ugh, embarrassing me. Enough said because I was totally embarrassing.

In which I realized.

Fluctuate is everyday's color. Trust is hard to gain and also, to give (not that I just realized it yesterday, it was just becoming too painfully obvious and I can't help but to mention it). It's a lot easier to conceal (still). And the most important realization is playing hide and seek with words still becomes my favorite hobby ever.

These were events from 161112 - 161120. I had no special intentions when I started writing this post. Until now, I still have no intentions. I just wanted to write something. AND THEY REALLY ARE LIKE PROMPTS. Ah, I miss making fics. So, my week was really absurd, right? Okay, now I'm going to read some fics. I started this post in the middle of Nov and now, it's already Dec.

Hello, writer's block.

Final exams week is coming and holidays follow it. Gotta hold on until then and keep maintaining these happy vibes. So, please be happy.